I’m 21 years old. Tonight was my last Deltasig meeting. Tomorrow is my last class. One week from today is my last final. And 1 ½ weeks from now I will be an official graduate of Colorado State University with a degree in Marketing and General Sociology. WTF.
I remember the last few years in Deltasig looking at the characteristics of these people who were graduating: Mature. Established. Inspirational. Confident. Knowledgeable. Old. Put-together. Casual attire at the last meeting.
I look at myself and do not see these similarities. The facts just don’t match up. All the words that describe a “college graduate” and a “21 year old” I cannot apply to myself. My brain just doesn’t know how to grasp this concept that I am now part of that group. I look in the mirror and I see the same woman I’ve seen for the last 6 years staring back at me. Not someone who has experienced so much in her life. I notice my vocabulary when I speak is far more sophisticated, when the hell did that happen? When did I establish a wardrobe that I have had for the past 4 years? My goodness—wtf.
Of course I’m excited about all this extreme life changing, but I don’t feel capable of internalizing this. Maybe it will come as I complete my last final. Or as I walk across the stage at graduation. Or when I move my stuff to Boulder or Denver. Or when classes start back up in the fall and I do not plan to attend them. Whenever it does happen I know that I will have no regrets about the amazing experiences I had thus far.
So- in the spirit of appreciating my experiences, I would like to list the 10 top experiences of my college career:
- Laying in bed and bonding with Laura on cold snowy days in our dorm room
- Going for hella-long walks with Dominic around campus expanding my soul
- Becoming President of Delta Sigma Pi
- Getting to know the amazing faculty at CSU
- Staying up until 3am talking with the most amazing people I have ever met
- Watching the full moon
- Building a phenomenal 4-year-bond with Amy and Melissa
- Watching the pledges at initiation as Jr. Pledge Educator
- Crying with Monica at Formal
- Hearing that I positively impacted Delta Sigma Pi
Each of these experiences surrounds building those connections with people and I will treasure them for all eternity.
So to you Mr. College, it’s been incredible but I am not sad to leave. Instead proud of my experiences and eager for the future. And.....I’m off.
