Sunday, December 9, 2007

PostSecret

This is an incredible website and it literally sent chills down my back as I read some of them.
http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

This probably meant the most to me because this is exactly how I felt all summer. Yes, it was a great experience, but in the end this is EXACTLY how I felt at the end. "Meaningful" means very different things to different people, and to me, that meant I will not do retail and I will not put myself in an environment where I am working 'closing shifts' and hate going to work--and some days over the summer I didn't want to go there.


Sad.
I feel this one...sometimes one's time could be spent doing something more productive in my opinion.


And this is how I feel and hope every day.













There are a lot of other photos I really liked but I don't have the patience to upload them all. So just check out the website...

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Music and my soul

Nothing can truly sooth me and excite me at the same time as music. And here are some of the lyrics of the songs that completely move my soul.

Ben Lee: "Love Me Like The World Was Ending"
This is the first day of the future,
And all i want is you.
I wear a pair of socks you left here.
But i know, i know, i know, nobody could ever fill your shoes.
I can see so clearly when your smoke gets in my eyes.
Please me with your promises and hurt me with your lies.
Baby can you hear the message i am sending?
Love me like the world is ending.
This is the last day of existence.
And all i want is you.
There's a certain sadness.
But i know, i know, i know, the sky is what makes the ocean blue.
I can see so clearly when your smoke gets in me.
Please me with your promises and hurt me with your lies.
Baby can you hear the message i am sending?
Love me like the world is ending.
And they all say to pour it has to rain
So don't complain if we get wet in the deep end.
I can see when your smoke gets in my eyes.
Please me with your promises and hurt me with your lies.
Baby, can you hear the message i am sending?
Love me like the world is ending.

Ben Kweller: "Thirteen"
We've been in the rain
We've been on the mountain
We've been round the fire

In fancy hotels
Drank water from farm wells
We sang with the choir

I kissed your dry lips
We jumped off the high cliffs
And splashed down below

Skin to skin
In the salty river
Made love in the shadow
Woooah ooh

Read books to each other
Read the mind of the other
Flew one thousand (jets?)

We laughed and we cried
At movies and real life
In our ridiculous beds

We danced in the moonlight at midnight
We pressed against back doors and wooden floors
And you never faked it

And frequently
We ignored our love
But we could never mistake it
Oooh ooh

We met on the front porch
Fell in love on the phone
Without the physical wreck

You gave me the necklace
That used to hang
Around your mothers neck

We questioned religions
Fed bread to the pigeons
We learned how to pray

We stood by the ocean
Turned our hearts in to one
We laid in bed all day
Heeey

We skipped on the sidewalk
Skipped stones on the water
We skipped town

We've seen the sunrise with new eyes
We've seen the damage of gossip and true lies
We've seen the sun go down

Had passionate makeouts
And passionate freakouts
We built this world of our own

It was in the back of a taxi
When you told me you loved me
And that I wasnt alone


Mandy Moore: "Gardenia"
Well, I put so much thought into getting ready
Now I know that was the best part
It's so easy to get caught up in what I'm regretting
Forget what I got from a wounded heart

I'm the one who likes Gardenia
I'm the one who likes to make love on the floor
I don't want to hang up the phone yet
It's been good
Getting to know me more
I've been seeing all my old friends in the city
Walking alone in Central Park
Doing all the things that I've neglected
Traded 'em all in
To be in your arms

Well, I hear my own voice
Sounds so silly
Keep on telling my story all around
Everything I lost seems so different
Well, this is how everybody gets found


The Wood Brothers: "Chocolate on my tongue"
Sittin' on the front porch
Ice cream in my hand
Meltin' in the sun
All that chocolate on my tongue

And that's good enough reason to live
Good enough reason to live

Sittin' in the bathtub
Hi-fi playin' low
Diggin' all that green
Well you must know what I mean

And that's good enough reason to live
Good enough reason to live

If I die young
At least I got some chocolate on my tongue
If I die young
'Least I got some chocolate on my tongue

Sittin' in the front seat
Good girl in my arms
Smilin' in my eyes
Gettin' me all hypnotized

And that's good enough reason to live
Good enough reason to live

If I die young
At least I got some chocolate on my tongue
If I die young
'Least I got some chocolate on, chocolate on my tongue
If I die young
At least I got some chocolate on my tongue

Garth Brooks: "More than a memory"
People say she's only in my head
Gonna take time but I'll forget
Say I need to get on with my life
What they don't realize

Is when you're dialing 6 numbers just to hang up the phone
Driving cross town just to see if she's home
Waking a friend in the dead of the night
just to hear him say it'll be alright dapslyrics
When you're finding things to do at night, not fall asleep (?)
Know she will be there in your dreams
that's when she's
more than a memory

took a page to everything she ever wrote(?)
watched every word go up in smoke
tore all her pictures off the wall
that aint helping me at all

'Cause when you're talking out loud to nothing but air
you look like hell and you just don't care
you're drinking more than you ever drank
and sinking down lower than you ever sank
then you find yourself falling on your knees
shaking your fist, begging "please"
that's when she's
more than a memory

People say she's only in my head
Gonna take time but I'll forget
but when she's in every minute of every day
every thought i think
every breath i take
she's everywhere and she's everything
she's more than a memo


So the main reason I love these songs is because of their passion. Not all of these songs represents feelings I have experienced, but regardless, goodness they are spectacular. Poetic. Insightful. Earth-shattering. And each song holds a very special place in my heart. When I'm feeling depressed I can lay on my bed, with songs like this blasting and everything just stops. The drama stops. The insecurities stop. My anger is released. My tears are released. My soul shakes.