My Two Sides

So I've realized that there are two sides of me. That isn't a bad thing, or at least I don't believe it is, and it's just the way it is. My two sides are the girly girl side and the deep side.

"Girly Girl Shannon": I like to giggle at stupid things, run around, care about what others think of me, get warped into gossip, this is basically the shallow side of me. I'm not sure how I feel about this side. On one hand, this is who I am, and I accept that. But on the other, I don't know if I like being this person. It seems silly to care about celebrities, read tabloids, gossip about others, and judge others. *Don't get me wrong this certainly isn't the dominant side of me, but it does tend to appear now and then with certain people.* So I think the point of writing this is for me to see that I don't like that side of me. By self evaluation (although VERY public self criticism) I can really see what I want to change. Another thing about this side of me, this is the side that I get stereotyped as a lot. Just by my appearance I am expected to be this way. And I like proving people wrong, because side two of me is my dominant side.

"Deep Shannon": I like talking about life. Analyzing myself and others. Talking about things that really matter in the world. Making connections with anyone and everyone who is willing. Talking about real things. Not how much you drank this weekend, because I could really care less. I want to have conversations about the world, politics, societies, financial hot buttons, advertising, moral issues, natural disasters, and all kinds of things that I believe solidify my beliefs and understanding of the world, and myself. I want to spend hours taking walks. Start a conversation with "how do you feel about..." and see where it goes from there. If you're one of those people (besides Heike, Dominic, Dan, Tommy and Matt) then let me know! Because I'd love to have one of those conversations with you. It's such a great way to learn more than you ever expected. Those conversations open my eyes to how others are, and how they view this complex world. We all know how we feel, it's time we challenge each other, and see who is worth connecting with.

Thank you to everyone for including me in some of those conversations. Even last week I went to a going away party and was shocked by the conversation. We talked about 911, Columbine, Michael Moore, and all kinds of other topics that made me think! I was happy to not resort to the topics about school, or movies, etc. So thank you to Larissa for that experience! And all of you who have challenged me, I'm the person I am because of all of you, and I'm forever grateful for that.